The last couple of months have been a real time of change for me. From simple material things like my phone and car, to pretty major life decisions, which includes a change of church for the first time in my life.
I have grown up in Ballyclare Presbyterian since the age of 3 and have made some great friends through the church and organisations and it’s not something that I will forget quickly, but I have felt that for the last year, I needed a bigger challenge and to feel that I had a chance to learn something myself. There were times that I honestly felt like I was giving everything I could to help and still feeling like I was being used and not having a chance to grow in my faith.
It’s probably the scariest life decision I’ve had to make, purely because I faced it alone and it was a major case of stepping out of the comfort-zone from a place where everyone had known me for the last 20 years and into a completely new place, where I thought that only a couple of people would know me. I arrived in the car park of Carnmoney Presbyterian and literally questioned myself for a few minutes … “What are you doing? You’re not going to know anyone here.” “Why didn’t you bring someone with you?!” etc etc … but finally plucked up the courage and headed for the front doors.
The door was opened for me as I approached and I was greeted by the familiar face of a guy (Matt) who I used to work with in Next a few years ago. Relief was now the overwhelming feeling and then we began chatting as if we’d only seen each other the previous week and the fear barrier quickly subsided. He introduced me to his (now) wife and a few friends and I felt instantly welcome and that these were my kind of people who I would enjoy being around.
Over the last couple of months I’ve got to know a lot more people, added a lot more Twitter followers, been invited into people’s homes, sang worship songs I’d never even heard being sang in a church before, been challenged directly by what’s being preached and have left the church building some Sunday evenings in complete awe of God.
One song that has been a regular on the set-list is “Cornerstone” by Hillsong … if you don’t remember anything that I’ve written about in this post, please just listen to the words of this song … simply incredible.
Paul writes this in Romans 12 v 2:
And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what the will of God is, that which is good and acceptable and perfect.
I really believe that this new start in a new place is exactly the way to renew my mind and to continue to challenge me in how I act and live outside of the four walls of a church, outside of a Sunday evening. The people who I have met and got to know in the short time I’ve been at Carnmoney have made the world of difference and I feel like I’ve been part of that family for years rather than a few months … so thank you for helping me make that change.